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I'm not going to become a veterinarian. At best I think I might be a vet technologist (a 4 year degree). I'm not going to be able to memorize everything for my anatomy class or any of the in depth things I'll be expected to do as a pre-major. I barely think I'm smart enough to be a technologist, but I'm just saying it to get my grandparents off my back (I don't want them to talk about the family 'disappointment', even though it's what I am.
I've let don't every single teacher I've ever had, every teacher that thought or said that I was going on to 'better things'. It's not true, maybe it was at some point in the past, but it's not now. I'm a fucking disappointment, a mistake. I don't belong in this program, or this school at all, maybe not any school. Despite what everyone has disillusioned themselves with, I'm not smart. I'm not smart enough to be a vet and I don't have a "bright future". I'm just a fucking waste.
My mom wants me to take some career aptitude tests, just to see. I'll try doing them later.
The only other thing I'm slightly ok at is art, and my mom doesn't want me to go into that fully, for stability reasons. But if I don't do vet or art, then there's nothing left of me. I've forgotten most of what I learned of Spanish, and I don't like anything else. I'm not good enough to do anything. I'm sorry if this journal is whiny, I'll probably delete it later. But when I try to talk I start crying so no one can understand me and I'm fucking sick of the way my family responds to me, "everybody feels like this, you're so smart you can do anything", but they won't stop lying to me no matter how much I beg them to stop. If I wanted somebody to tell me that I'm smart, I'll just ask them or something, I'm not fishing for compliments, this is how I honestly feel and no one telling me the opposite is going to make me feel better.
I really wish I was better than this, but I'm just not and never will be.
I might just drop out and a get a job for a few years to pay off this loan, then maybe go back after they're paid off. I don't know. 
I wish I was stronger and smarter, then I could fight for what this, but I'm not even sure I want it anymore. I don't really want anything anymore, I just wish I wasn't here.
I'm sorry for sounding like a dick, and I'm sorry that I couldn't be a better artist or friend or anything. One day I'll try to be,
I just don't even know what to do right now, I've never felt this empty and angry at myself. I've lied to myself for 14 years, thinking I could do it, thinking it was what I wanted. Everything's beginning to hurt too. I cut my arm badly a month or so ago, and it looks like it's going to scar. Two days ago I got something removed at a doctors office, and I had an awful panic attack (throwing up, I passed out then I was deaf for a few minutes). I can't sleep right, or eat well, I don't even know. I just wish I had time to make myself better, I wish I was better. I love you guys so much, and I just can seem to stop failing you, I'm so sorry 
I'll try to update if anything changes, or if I come up with a new plan for transferring or something
Nose Boop again by Aquiavel
Nose Boop again
Pre-finished^^ it'll be cut and all ready for buttoning when I come home this Thursday^^
i know there is lax shading on Aqui's neck behind the ear, as well as the ear itself. That's because when you draw a graphic at full size, the outer purges (and about a half a centimeter inwards) are crimped into the pin back, so you only see the colors along the outer edge of a finished button. (I learned this the hard way with a few buttons earlier) I really like how this came out^^ please tell me what you guys think! I'm a bit nervous with my human anatomy and I'd love to improve
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Nose Boop Sketch by Aquiavel
Nose Boop Sketch
Persona Fursona button :'D
a funny clash of "worlds" This was actually quite fun to do, so I'm going to open a separate button commission slot (even though nobody wants my commissions anyway x'D) (thank you all for your kind words of encourage, I will reply as soon as I get a reliable connection back at school <3)
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Happy Birthday, Flamie! by Aquiavel
Happy Birthday, Flamie!
So today is the wonderful FlameKurosei's birthday! Go spam him with love!
I wish I had more time to make you something :(  (Next year will be better! :3)
I hope you have an amazing day, you deserve it! <3
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I'm not going to become a veterinarian. At best I think I might be a vet technologist (a 4 year degree). I'm not going to be able to memorize everything for my anatomy class or any of the in depth things I'll be expected to do as a pre-major. I barely think I'm smart enough to be a technologist, but I'm just saying it to get my grandparents off my back (I don't want them to talk about the family 'disappointment', even though it's what I am.
I've let don't every single teacher I've ever had, every teacher that thought or said that I was going on to 'better things'. It's not true, maybe it was at some point in the past, but it's not now. I'm a fucking disappointment, a mistake. I don't belong in this program, or this school at all, maybe not any school. Despite what everyone has disillusioned themselves with, I'm not smart. I'm not smart enough to be a vet and I don't have a "bright future". I'm just a fucking waste.
My mom wants me to take some career aptitude tests, just to see. I'll try doing them later.
The only other thing I'm slightly ok at is art, and my mom doesn't want me to go into that fully, for stability reasons. But if I don't do vet or art, then there's nothing left of me. I've forgotten most of what I learned of Spanish, and I don't like anything else. I'm not good enough to do anything. I'm sorry if this journal is whiny, I'll probably delete it later. But when I try to talk I start crying so no one can understand me and I'm fucking sick of the way my family responds to me, "everybody feels like this, you're so smart you can do anything", but they won't stop lying to me no matter how much I beg them to stop. If I wanted somebody to tell me that I'm smart, I'll just ask them or something, I'm not fishing for compliments, this is how I honestly feel and no one telling me the opposite is going to make me feel better.
I really wish I was better than this, but I'm just not and never will be.
I might just drop out and a get a job for a few years to pay off this loan, then maybe go back after they're paid off. I don't know. 
I wish I was stronger and smarter, then I could fight for what this, but I'm not even sure I want it anymore. I don't really want anything anymore, I just wish I wasn't here.
I'm sorry for sounding like a dick, and I'm sorry that I couldn't be a better artist or friend or anything. One day I'll try to be,
I just don't even know what to do right now, I've never felt this empty and angry at myself. I've lied to myself for 14 years, thinking I could do it, thinking it was what I wanted. Everything's beginning to hurt too. I cut my arm badly a month or so ago, and it looks like it's going to scar. Two days ago I got something removed at a doctors office, and I had an awful panic attack (throwing up, I passed out then I was deaf for a few minutes). I can't sleep right, or eat well, I don't even know. I just wish I had time to make myself better, I wish I was better. I love you guys so much, and I just can seem to stop failing you, I'm so sorry 
I'll try to update if anything changes, or if I come up with a new plan for transferring or something

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Aqui
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
Hello All^^
Im an 18 year old only child from New York, though I do have DA siblings:3
My favorite thing to draw is anthro/furry wolves, though I assure you, everything in my gallery is clean, and always will be^^
I also do other 'furry' species and realistic art/ still lives
I've been drawing "seriously" for about four years, and I hope that I improve with every picture, but thats a matter of opinion^^ my favorite media are colored pencils, markers and water colors (though I have been known to use acrylic, pen and crayon)
I really hope that you find something you like in my gallery
If you have any other questions about me or have any suggestions on how I can improve artistically please comment or note! :'D
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Button Badges
Button Batch 1 by Aquiavel
Metal backed, pin back and protected by a sheet of clear glossy Mylar 
Size-2.25 inches
I can do head shots, partial body with scenery, solid color backgrounds, gradient backgrounds, black and white, etc.^^
I can make kissing sets for couples too
if you have a drawing already made or a photo you want to button, just mail it to me on regular printer paper and I'll make it a button :)
Postage is not included in this comm. slot, I'll make a separate slot based on how much it'll cost to mail it where you live^^
(if you want a commission and live outside the US just note me^u^)
Pencil Sketches
Happy Birthday, ThousandLeaves! by Aquiavel
WIP: final pencil- foreground by Aquiavel
Head Sketch Dump by Aquiavel
Still Life by Aquiavel
I don't have the best examples but XD 
I also do anatomy studies, emote studies, turn arounds, what is shown here and basically anything else ^u^
as always, they'll be upload here and/or mailed to the buyer^^
DeviantArt IDs
ME! by Aquiavel
Aqui-licious by Aquiavel
Merry Christmas! by Aquiavel
MERRY CHRISTMAS SIS! by Aquiavel
AT    Mirera and Gage Christmas Kisses by Aquiavel
My Nee'xua by Aquiavel
1 to 2 characters^^ Headshot, full-body, chibi, holiday...ect
Just let me know what you'd like and I'll do it (minus offensive, overly-sexual, things of that nature)
These are simple shaded, colored and inked :D They'd be uploaded (and mailed to you, if you'd like ;) )
Backgrounds can be flat color, color gradation, simple design, white or holiday themed!
I can do those circle, heart or cube background things too :D
NOTE if you're interested in a Halloween ID request one within the next week or so, then I can upload it before the holiday passes^^
Badges
Aqui 2: Revenge of the Chibi by Aquiavel
Aquia Badge by Aquiavel
Aqui headshot badge by Aquiavel
=^.^=  and  ^.^/ by Aquiavel
New Aqui Badge by Aquiavel
I can do more then what is shown here^^ for example (simple circle backgrounds and your character's name) All badges like theses have simple shading^^ I don't laminate them, because if I mail them to you, laminate sheets can separate in cold damp weather :( I won't charge for something that has the possibility for damage
DESCRIPTION
-DOUBLE SIDED (will be mailed with both sides flat glued so you can       laminate or caste it if you wish)
-SHADED
-COLORED
-INKED
-EMOTE
-NAMES
-FULL BODY CHIBI OR HEADSHOT
-SIZE CAN BE VARIABLE TO WHAT YOU WANT 

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Ange-ll-os Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav~ :3
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Rabbiata Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! :hug:
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AuldBlue Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for faving +watch! <3
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knight-of-sand Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the watch, my dear friend :hug::heart:!!
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Aquiavel Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're so welcome <3
You're art is downright amazing :'3
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BlackMadeleine Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the +fav Glomp!

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Aquiavel Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're so welcome^^
Your stuff is awesome! <3
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CodyTheHusky Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Tresher Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2015
Thanks for the fave! :)
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Aquiavel Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome! <3
Keep up the great work :D
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